Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Party Bear




Aliya


Aliya n Cengdemnyah^^

Ini adalah digital scrapbook Aliya.. yang tlah lama kujanjikan pada mba Dyah..akhirnya bisa terpajang juga.. (PS: maap yah mba..kok email aku ga nyampe2 yah..padahl dah 2 kali tak kirim lhoo..binun aku..)
Hehehehe anyway... silakan dikomen n dikasih kritik n sarannya yah.. ada 2 alternatip..silakan dipilih sesuai selera..

PS lagi: maap yah mba Dyah..aku baru sadar kalo putrimu tercinta namanya Aliya bukan Aliyah..maapkan dakoe T_____T makacih dah berbaik hati merelakan poto putrimu tak culik buat menghias scrapbook digital buatan aku hehehe^^ Thx mba Dyah...

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Eraser Collections




Some of my Eraser Collections^^

Me and de Wave

Me and de WAVE

One day

Mi Boss (B) : " San..since now on u will be the one in charged to do all the design approval "

Mi (S) : " Hehhh.. why me?? "

Mi Colleague (C) : " Isn't that me the one who in charged to do all the approval "

S : ...... (still in the state of shocked)

B : " Yup, but start from now, she will do all the design approval "

S : ".. But why me? "

B : " Coz u are from the creative department, so it's will be more effecient if u also do all the design approval...
     So u can directly get the feedbacks, do the revision and send it right away to get the approval "

C : " So its not me again who in charged for those approval "

S : " But i don't know those people..i don't know how to do all those approval "

B : " But u can learn right? "

S : " Huuum yeah.........." (still in state of shocked)

B : " Okay u can learn then "

S : " How if i made mistakes "

B : " It's okay..that's process of learning right? "

S : " Yee...aa...a..h..."

C : " How about me? "
 
B : " You have a lot of things to do right? "

C : " Yeah..... (silent)....okay.....so it can reduced my work "

B : " Okay..so San u will do the approval.. start with..bla bal..bla..blaaaaa...."

Mi...

Hummm all this approval things are new to me..i only do design and leading my team.. that's all the world i know..

And now..mi Boss asked me to come out from my comfy world and step forward to meet the bigger world outside my world..

For me..my job right now is like landing on a beach..building my sand castle with my team..which i called family..Where's everything sounds cool and comfy..with sun shining around.. some crabs might come over and try to ruined the castle..but it's okay..we always can fixed it..slow but sure..^^

But nowwww.. it seems like mi Boss want's me to come out from the castle..he asked me to go further..more then just stay in the beach.. He asked me to cross the sea and meet the waves outside.. The problem is...the wave is big..i can't swim..i don't know how to swim.. mi Boss only give me a surfing board.. He said tamed the wave and ride it on.. so u can surf and feel the beauty and fun of the sea..

And now on..i'm learning to swim...full of stress and doing a lot of mistakes
Some silly one sometimes (like forget to attached the image..saying unappropriate words, too pushy or too calm, confusing.. and many more to write on the list hehehehhe:-p) But i'm in the process of learning.. it seems like.. i already in the state of running..then someone pull my legs and i need to crawl to get back..

Everyday now is like having a class..about how to write well in english.. how to communicate with others in a pushy way but seems like not (hummm this one is hard..still not good in this..need to learn a lot from my colleague..she's good in this huehuehuee^^), begging for approval from those with different attitudes and personalities, chasing and run with time.. meanwhile still need to lead my team.. so they wont get in trouble and stay save in the castle..hehehe^^

Me my self.. try to tame the wave little by little..sometimes i fall and the water filled my mouth and lung.. that made me wanna scream and cry..But thanks God i have a good team and friends to support me.. they Ciayoo-ing me, listen to my problems, try to cheer me up and help me to stand up and go for the waves once more.. It's hard..but i'm learning on it.. and i hope one day i can really tamed the waves and ride not only a surfing board but a boat..so i can be the sailor of my team..and bring them to see the bright blue sky from the wide blue sea.. and off course with Jesus always as the captain of my boat^^

Help me o Lord...

~s@n~ June, 5th 2008

Huuum..

"Huuumm"

Is it wrong if we changed because the situation has changed and our priority also changed??

One night..

Mi fren (M) : He has changed, i can't be his best friend no longer

Mi (S) : Huhh??? You mean?

M : Yeah, he has changed..he never want to share his problems with me..but he always wants to know mine

S : Humm..yeahh maybe he just don't want to share it with u.. we must appreciate his decission on it

M : That's why i can't be his friend anymore..
I don't know anything about him now..even all the big issues..
i don't know, but u know..
He shared it with u but not with me

S : Like what?

M : Like when his sister was sick..he didn't let me know bout it..

S : Humm..he let me knew coz he thought i could suggest him..where to take his sister for a good medication

M : Yeah..he only shared his problem to the one who can give him solution on it, that's why we only can be friends.. not best friend.. or better if i called him ex friend..

S : Huhh..you mean? You don't want to be his friend anymore?

M : ..Coz he has changed.. he don't want to share his problems with me

M : He's such an introvert..

S : Huuuuuu..uuu..uum... (deep long breath)
S : I don't know what kind of person he is now.. we don't chatz much lately
S: Buuuuuuuuuuut....
He has told me this thing..
"People..might not always be the same..people might changed.. based on the situation and priority.. And we can't forced someone to be always the same.. in line with the changed of situatioan and priority everything will changed.."

S : Based on his statement.. I thought his priority is now his GF and his career :)

M : I thought his priority is now his GF and his career :) <- yup you're right

S : Yeah..i thought that's why he has changed..
Friendship.. fellowship.. us.. used to be his priority.. but now his priority has changed.. i think we can't forced him to be the same..

M : ..... (Huuum)

S : He has changed his priority, and we're no longer included in it..so what..
We are not more then his friend.. if he thought that his GF and career is the most precious things right now.. what can we do?

M : .......... (Huuum)

S : He has his own life, i have my own life..and u also have ur own life.. we can't forced anything..u can't forced him to be the same and share everyting with u..

S : We must appreciate his privacy.. we must appreciate his decission
If we're not part of his priority anymore..so just faced it..
It's sad i know (have been through those sadness too) but thats the fact.. u can do nothing bout it

S : As a good friend.. i thought it's better if just stay where we are..
Not moving back..not moving forward.. just stand still.. always be there..if only one day he look back.. and we will be there for him..

M : Hahaha that's stupid

S : Yeah i know..that's sounds stupid and pathetic.. but should we pull him back.. pulling him out of the life that he choose and enjoy now..isn't that sounds egoist..
He said his GF is the most wonderful gift that God has sent him in this life^^

M : .............. (Huuum)

S : For me.. better to let him go and be happy with his choices.. then make him stay..but he didn't enjoy it anymore

M : Yeah..whatever lah.. i just can't be his friend anymore
...
S : Huuuu..uuu..uuum... (speechless)

And tonight..here i am thinking back about those conversation..
Huuuum... is it wrong for someone to changed his priority..

He is the one who used to idolizing and praised the word of friendship.. now is ride his own ship and left his friends behind

He is the one who will do everything for the sake of friendship.. now think more about himself and said that i'm a "cuek" person.. i don't really care about others

He is the one who always try to help others..now don't really care about them..even when they are in big troubles

He is the one who always try to keep in touch with his frenz.. now don't care..even to say hello or how are you

Sad..but that's true..

Is it wrong if he changed.because..we..his friend is no longer in the priority list..
Hum maybe we're still there..but in number ten or more..

Buuuuuuuuuut..in the other hand

Is it wrong if he try to moving on
He made a new priority list (such as GF and career) and try to make those priority in the top of the list..and build a new happy life with it..

Maybe he thought that he will never loose his friends..thus friendship can last forever but GF and career wont last..unless he works hard on it..^^
And someday..there will be time where only he, himself, his GF (maybe become his wife someday) and his career which will be his whole life all about.. that's why those things become his top priority right now^^
And about friends we might not be the only friends he had.. he still can make new friends.. and we..we maybe not become close friends any longer..but we will always still be his friend (friendship is last forever, remember..there's an ex GF, ex BF, ex Boss, etc but there's no ex friend huehehee^^)

Huuuuummmm.. is it wrong?

Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmm...... Me..?? confused.. i don't know i should smile or cry...

~s@n~ (June,4th 2008)